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2012!

Hey all! I know it's been forever :) 

  I've been thinking recently about the brain and us, humans and how we just get so attached to things and then we can't really shake them. I don't just mean things that aren't good for us either. For example, people. We get really attached to people. 

 Here's a poem I really love by e.e.cummings that I think adequately shows what I'm talking about:

i carry your heart with me by E. E. Cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) 
It's beautiful. But sometimes creepy to me - that we just get So Attached. Just thoughts.
Anyway, so It's officially 2013. Here's to 2012, in which I
  • Had such an AMAZING time teaching the gospel of Jesus Christ as a missionary
  • Saw some awesome people get baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints
  • Cried a lot because I had to come home from my mission in May after my 18 months were unfortunately up
  • Went BACK to visit Virginia :D SOOO much fun. Special thanks to the Guengerich family <3>
  • Swam in the ocean (mmmm.... )
  • Wave-jumped for the first time with an awesome young woman
  • Welcomed some nephews and a niece
  • Returned to school and met some really cool people
  • Decided to go to medical school and planned my "grad plan" to get there - Wahoo!
  • Spent the semester re-adjusting to "real people life" Ick haha jk
  • Fell in love...with All-stars, snow, and fluffernutters (among other things)
  • Spent time with my family for Christmas - including meeting and entertaining a Very rambunctious amazing awesome sweet little nephew who lives too far away.
  • Came to accept the truth that I will never be that missionary again .. .. .. and that's okay.

Welcome to 2013! It's going to be, as the Doctor says, "Fantastic!"

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