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Taking Stock

"Thus saith the Lord of hosts; consider your ways." Haggai 1:7, KJV


Seeing: colors. the bright yellow-orange-pink of grapefruit. the grey-blue of the day waking up.
Making: baby steps to perfection and eternal life.
Cooking: feijouda (a brazilian black bean meat stew - it's delicious, trust me.)
Drinking: raspberry herbal tea. the color of this tea is beautiful. a rich brown with red tones.
Reading: textbooks. sensation and perception. abnormal psychology. the lesson on pride today for sunday school.
Hearing: some of my favorite christian rock music. there is a lot of christian music i can't stand. but there are plenty that i love. jj heller's love can make you new - a beautiful testament on the enabling power of the atonement.
Wanting: this moment to last forever. more frequently than not, i find myself comfortable in my now and not wanting it to go. the lesson of enjoying my now took a lot of work and patience and maybe i learned it too well haha
Looking: nervously toward my first medical school interview in less than two weeks.
Playing: a little each day. you have to do this. it's sanity.
Wasting: away - just kidding! i'm trying to lose weight to qualify for a military scholarship
Understanding: how quickly life can change
Wishing: for more - more holiness. more humility. more time with my loved ones. 
Touching: my absolute favorite slippers. if you do not own a pair of fuzzy slippers - go get some! i love mine.
Enjoying: the quiet of my apartment when no one else is up but me. a rare occurrence when you have five other roommates
Waiting: to find him
Planning: a relief society lesson on pride. so good for me.
Liking: my apartment dynamic this semester. i am very blessed that in my last semester in my undergrad i have roommates i love. each of them. its a beautiful tender mercy. take stock of your tender mercies today. can you pinpoint God's hand in your life?
Loving: feeling daily peace from the Lord. it will always amaze me, i think, the depth of his love, and the depth of his understanding of us
Hoping: my lesson goes well today! i enjoy teaching - i think it is the absolute best form of study - studying to teach other people. because you really have to know
Hating: my own weaknesses
Needing: more time to get all my homework done. 
Smelling: the crockpot - those beans!
Wearing: my pajamas still haha eventually i will have to contemplate getting dressed for the day ;P
Learning: more about pride. everyone experiences pride. it takes many forms. this includes any feelings of 'my will' over 'God's will.' an interesting point of doctrine.
Teaching: myself to do things when i need to do them!!!
Noticing: more frequently the beauty of rexburg, idaho. my time here is drawing to a close and that is truly bittersweet.
Tasting: freedom - come december!
Knowing: change happens so quickly and you rarely can predict what might happen. so express love and thanks to those in your sphere of influence and be the best you that you can be every day. you just never know what might happen to you or someone you love.
Opening: a box of brownie mix later ;)
Laughing: at myself more everyday and at the world in general. i love that.
Feeling: overwhelmed but trustful
Studying: the attributes of Christ for the next few weeks for a class. be prepared for an update on that! 

 take the time to check in with yourself. it's a powerful meditative tool and helps you center the world back where it belongs. 

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