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Taking Stock - IV


Seeing: the bright sun shine on Aunt K’s piano, sleeping old cats, comfort
Making: sure I am trying to be my best self every new day
Cooking: brown rice – yum! For dinner: brown rice and stir fry veggies - yum
Drinking: H2O – because I don’t drink enough of it and I’m trying to sugar purge (wish me luck ;)
Reading: do you follow me on Goodreads? On my “currently reading” bookshelf are eight books. Apparently I’m having a hard time of it on settling in and reading just one at a time. I’ve always sort of been like that. It’s because they are different genres. If I’m reading a fantasy novel I also have to be reading something intellectual. Unless, of course, on those rare occasions, I have picked up a fantasy that is intellectual enough to satisfy. In which case, I have to also be reading a non-fiction book or some such.
Hearing: my new running playlist. My dear friend Christy turned me on to some new bands which I am enjoying too loudly on my aunt’s speakers. Currently? Bryce Vine’s “Sour Patch Kids” – have you heard it?
Wanting: to figure out my healthcare *roll eyes here*
Looking: forward to August and my new adventure at MEDICAL SCHOOL in the PNW
Playing: a little each day. you have to do this. it's sanity.
Wasting: too much time on things that don't matter and comparing myself to other people
Understanding: how difficult it can be to be an adult … but how blessed I am to be an adult in the United States
Wishing: for more - more holiness. more humility. more time with my loved ones. 
Touching: the hearts of nine stubborn girls every day (hopefully)
Enjoying: the time I have before I leave and the fact that I don’t have to pay rent ha
Waiting: impatiently for too many things
Planning: to see my brother in a week who I haven’t seen in a year because of a military deployment!! Seriously, I can’t tell you how excited I am for this. I took six days off of work and I get to see more of my family and it’s going to be excellent! Also, it’s over my birthday, so awesomeness is a given
Liking: myself more today as I make better choices – both for my physical and my spiritual health. There are many things outside your control but there is so much that is within it too. It gets so easy to focus on the first and neglect the second.
Loving: the feeling that comes from applying the Atonement of the Savior. Sometimes I go through stretches of time when it seems like I have to apply the redeeming part of the Atonement Every.Single.Day for days and it gets exhausting. Realizing our own weaknesses can sometimes be depressing enough that it just happens to push us to our knees. I live for those stretches of times when I’m applying daily the enabling part of the atonements more thickly than the redeeming. For a better understanding of the enabling power of the atonement of Christ, see this weblink and Elder Bednar’s excellent address here

Hoping: the next five months go relatively quickly
Hating: my lack of funds… money is dumb.
Needing: more travelling! See the above issue haha 
Smelling: the stirfry being finished!!!
Wearing: leggings and my night shirt. Don’t judge – I was very productive today and you have to give yourself little rewards like getting in your comfies before 6 pm occasionally
Learning: pieces of God’s puzzle repeatedly. For example, what it means to be planted on gospel sod and the personal things I need to work on to develop greater faith.
Teaching: girls how to live in a world where they actually aren’t entitled to everything – a surprisingly difficult concept for them to grasp, unfortunately.
Noticing: how with warmer weather my attitude perks up – or maybe it has to do with the weather warming at the same time as I’m getting over tonsillitis and a sinus infection, hmmm
Tasting: freeeeeedoommmm
Knowing: less than I thought I did about so so so many things.
Opening: each day with optimism and mostly hope that I’ll be good that day
Laughing: at myself more everyday and at the world in general. I love that.
Feeling: a need for increased faith. That and way too much anxiety about not having things squared away for the fall – an apartment, replace my laptop, replace my car, health insurance, etc. *shiver*
Studying: less than I ought to really

take the time to check in with yourself. it's a powerful meditative tool and helps you center the world back where it belongs. 

I love this blackout poem:



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